Chapter 1

You should all probably know by now, that I am at the beginning of a new chapter in my life. Being single again at my age has not been as difficult as I once imagined. I have recovered some very long lost friends and I am making new ones everyday.

I lost myself when I was married. I lived for my husband and set aside my own needs. As I reflect back I realize that I always had that pattern. I become so consumed with someone that I forgot who I was and the rest of the world falls to the waist side. Well, no more....it's time to break the pattern. I am living for me!! I have wonderful friends that have shown me the person I once was....The fun-loving, spirited woman who laughed everyday and enjoyed the little things in life. Well, believe it or not I have been laughing.

People are shocked at how calm and serene I have been over the past few weeks. Yes, I didn't think that my marriage would ever break up and yes, I was bitter; but if I keep holding on to the past I will never be able to start my future. So, this is how I look at it...I met a man, I fell in love, and it just didn't work out...Its not the first time it ever happened. My mother reminded of the person I was before my marriage and I realized that this is the person I like best. So, here I am...living as I choose....making decisions for me...and seeing hope for a wonderful future.